When a girl is in love.... she loses herself

A girl’s feelings and reflections when she is in love and the sacrifices she made just for a man who brings her nothing but hurt… but she still loves him… :

I tried very hard to be the woman
he will love, his ideal girlfriend...

He said i'm fat, i lose weight...
He said i'm too sticky,
i tried to request for lesser meet ups.
He said i'm too dependent on him,
i learn to rely on my family and laopo
whenever i need support.
He said he like oreo-cheese cake,
i learn how to make one.
He said he doesnt like herbal tea
because it's usually bitter,
i brew chrysanthemum tea for him
whenever i feel he's heaty..

everywhere i go, he is on my mind...
every festive, i'll have surprises for him...
he mindlessly pass a comment that he wants
an old movie, i called all the vcd shops in sg,
just to find that movie and finally i found
it online.. i travel down to lavander
to collect it from a weird balding man..
all these just to see his smile...

i learnt to take care of him...
shower him with all the love i have...
wake up in the middle of the night,
whenever i stay over at his place,
just to put blanklet over him..
i love him, love his mom, dad, siblings,
nieces and all his relatives...
i tried really hard to be the most loving
girlfriend he has ever come across...

all i ask for is for him to love me...
shower me with some care and attention..
talk to me with tactfulness...
be mine and mine only...
cherish me and this relationship that
i put in so much effort to nurture...
everytime he hurt me,
i will try to love him more...
i just hope he will try not to hurt me
the same way he did again...

for everything i've done...
i hope he can drop me a msg
if he is going out..
just let me know his whereabout..
he thinks it's not necessary..
he simply cannot do that for me...
just cannot....

memories that means everything to me...

Natalie

I tried very hard to be the girl he will love, his ideal girlfriend...

He said i'm not his ideal girlfriend, i tried to continue just love him even I can't be his girlfriend
He said i'm fat, i lose weight...
He said i'm too sticky and no freedom,
i tried to not ask him to meet me and let him have freedom
He said i'm too dependent on him,
i learn to go see doctors myself, take care of myself
He said he likes healthy food,
i learn how to cook even scalding my fingers in the process.
He said he doesnt like to drink soup
i boil herbal soup for him
whenever i feel he works too hard and stressed..
He said he scared i can't ve kids
i go see doctor cause i wanted a family with him
He don't like a crybaby
i learned not to cry in front of him
He don't want another burden
i tried not to tell him so that he wont have to worry
He has another religion
i still stay even all the pressures r there
He said i can't be those girl that can attract him
i tried all ways n means to do it even i feel so thicked skin

everywhere i go, he is on my mind...
everytime i see sth i wonder wat i can do to make him happy
everytime i always think of his parents wonder what i can do for them
every festive, i'll have surprises for him...
he mindlessly pass any comment that he wants
i take it too seriously thinking those are promises... but as time passes by i learn not to expect, learn to forget, learn to relax so that he ll be happier
i learnt to take care of him...
shower him with all the love i have...

He loves his parents more... i m ok with it... i learn to care for his family...learn to buy things for them
i love him, love his mom, dad, siblings,
nieces and all his relatives...
He loves his games
i learn to love his games... learn to read up on them
He loves his study
i learn to research on them
i tried really hard to be the most loving
girlfriend he has ever come across...

Even if pple objects or feels tt i shld let go, i continue to go on cos i love him more than my own life...

memories that means everything to me...
If letting him go makes him happier... y can't i do it ?

A girl...

Double post~! but anyway, its nice

It is not double post... by 2 different girls....

只要我一天爱着他，心中有他，就有压力。。。
到底我要怎样他才会开心？
我真的好累啊。。。